Tomorrow morning, I will board my plane to come home.
Leaving South Africa is hard and a very bitter-sweet endeavor. I have learned
so much in my year here that it is hard to put into words. Some of my greatest
teachers and friends have been my high school students. Their stories, trials,
and their absolute eagerness to learn has inspired me in so many ways. My group
of about 20 students, meeting three times a week, has become a family; the most
lively and spunky one you can imagine. Leaving them makes my heart ache and I
pray that they will continue to support each other the way we have all
supported each other this year.
Nozuko's school motto is: "The sky is the limit" |
My other and most important teachers have been my South
African family. Nonzuzo Sibusana, a university student at UNISA, has been my
best friend and confidant here and has taught me more about Xhosa culture and
about life than I could have ever thought possible. She is 21, but has wisdom
and courage beyond her years. She has been my best teacher of language,
constantly testing and correcting my Xhosa, my insight into seemingly cultural
mysteries, my shoulder I could always lean on, and ears that would always
listen. As anyone that has met her can tell you, she has a great sense of humor
and I will never forget the countless hours we spent laughing about this or
that or Chuck Norris. Nonzuzo and her family have been my family on this side.
Their home has been my home away from home. Where I was treated differently
because I was American by others, she and her family accepted me as one of their
own (instead of treating me like a guest or a walking ATM) and excused many a
social faux pa without batting an eye. When I spent time at their home, I was
treated just like everyone else and it was wonderful. They will always have my
heart and when I come back to South Africa, it will be because of them.
Nonzuzo and me at Tsitsa Falls |
Goodbyes are hard and I’ve never been good at them. These
goodbyes that I’ve been saying the last couple days have been some of the
hardest I have ever experienced because there are so many things left
open-ended. I wonder if and when our people at Rotary will get housing, if my
students will be able to attend school next year without support from the Project,
what Mthatha is going to be like without AMM anymore. I will never be able to
come back to this world I’ve been living in this year because it is all
breaking apart and scattering to the winds presently. And if it was going to be hard to let go of
this place to begin with, it is infinitely harder now without any closure or a
knowledge that the good work being done by AMM will continue when I leave. As
they say, though, all good things must come to an end. Life will go on for me
and for everyone here. So, Mzansi, it has been real. Ndiyakukhumbula qoqoqo. I
will remember you always.
Uxolo,
Karen